Yun. Ang tagal nung huling beses ako nag blog. Ang busy lagi eh.
“And if I’m flying solo, At least I’m flying free.” – Wicked
Being alone does not bother me much. Sometimes, solitude is a way to develop ones’ self more. And, that is what I am doing now. No hatred, no indifference, no detractor is ever going to bring me down.
This year have been a bit challenging. There are moments of disappointments and frustrations. But, the important thing is I have lessons which I will surely keep.
I do not have to be a recluse after all. I have learned that though I had friends who I grown out of , I have friends which I can count on. They taught me these things:
1. It is okay to commit mistakes.
2. Let go of petty and negative feelings.
3. There are people who love me, and will help me at my lowest moments.
No matter what happens, your family knows what is best for you. They are the ones who will defend you. And they did this recently (I won’t give more details )
I love them.
“… sharing a common interest does not guarantee reciprocated goodwill.” -p.j.m.
I regret trusting several people this year. I even made a major decision because of the confidence I had to certain people, whom I shared the same belief with. I was wrong.
On the upside, there are still those individuals who stood up to their faith, prayed, and encouraged me.
1. Religious or not, the goodness of a person is yet to be proven.
2. It is okay to doubt and question as long as you know what you are stand is.
3. Like the prodigal son, though I have gone astray (many times), God is still willing to welcome, embrace, and to fix me.
I have met someone who I liked (Yes, people I am human xD). Though I had feelings for the said person, I did not court her. Sometimes, I feel sorry about it. But, the truths is I have a lot of growing up to do. I have to wait.
On my Abilities
I discovered my lack of self confidence have hindered me from improving myself. With practice, my skills were enhanced a bit. I was given a chance to write and sing my heart out.
I am still grateful for everything that happened in 2014, be it good or bad. Life is not supposed to be picture perfect right? So, I will just enjoy it with my family, friends, bffs, and people who supported me.
There are many instances where I felt cheated. I watched how people stole what I ought to have. I have seen how several people conspired against me. I know I deserve to get the fruits of what I toiled for.
But looking back, I can say that those things I yearned for are not really worth the effort and such disappointment . Maybe other people needed and helplessly begged for them that the universe took pity and just threw it to their faces.
Knowing and experiencing how I have been treated unfairly gives me enough assurance of who I am – a strong person, perhaps stronger than I perceived. Maybe it is the reason why I have endured such impish machinations from them. With these in my mind, I shall continue in striving for my progress. I will surpass my current self.
Things do not always go as planned. There are times where we feel down. Dreams die. Same applies to relationships. In short, life is not perfect.
Nevertheless, I see no reason to being distasteful about these things. We may feel wretched for a time but remember, it is our decision if we will stay like this or not. As we all say, happiness is a choice and so does misery.
I have learned that it is best to accept and embrace the imperfections of life. In this way, we can see where its real beauty lies.
For me, it is in appreciating the simplest joys, showing love to the people close to our hearts, creating beautiful memories and making each moment feel endless.
You could have been gentler,
in your treatment of others.
Yet you chose to be cold,
it’s like you don’t have a soul.
to those who are better than you,
Looking at their faults
as if you don’t have too.
Your mouth’s fondly devoted
to such imprecation,
You are always filled
with false indignation.
Let us be truthful:
no one is upright,
We’re not gods, we are people.